I made the mistake of going to see Julie&Julia this weekend. I say mistake because it has plunged me back into a world that I was trying hard to keep at arms length.

The movie was so good. My new favorite. I had considered going by myself just to be without distractions and take it all in. I am glad I went with friends though. I just sat their with kind of a stupid grin on my face almost the entire movie enjoying every morsel of it's goodness. When it was over I just wanted to sit for awhile, taking it all in. Savoring the culinary greatness before me (along with Meryl's stunning portrayal).

But alas I had to go home. Home with my mind filled with such wonderful things like Le Cresuset dutch ovens, coq au vin, All Clad copper pots, beurre blanc, lobster Bearnaise, and pretty, pretty knives.

And this is why I said mistake. I have no Le Creuset, or copper pots. I cannot afford lobster. My culinary creativity has been stifled by fickle toddlers, a slightly limited palette from my husband (no mushrooms?), a time pressed schedule and grocery budget.

So for now I will amuse myself with peasant dishes (like Julia's ratatouille, on tonights dinner menu) and caramelized onions and Boursin on my grilled veggie panini for lunch. I will be elbow deep in dough this afternoon, and contemplating creative new kinds of cupcakes. Because flour and sugar are oh-so-cheap. I will thrive on the very occasional trip to a nice restaurant, and salivate for weeks on end about the memory of the last one, and the luscious dishes to come at the next.

So this is why I will urge you to go see this movie with caution. If you aren't a food lover, than go, maybe it will ignite your senses to a wondrous world you were previously in the dark about. But if you already consider yourself a "foodie" and the sight of a well made pastry sets heartbeat a little faster, than I will just say, you have been warned.

I just saw an interview with Jim Carey where he was talking about his upcoming movie The Christmas Carol (based on the book by Charles Dickens) and he refers to it as "one of the greatest stories of redemption ever written".

Um, no. I'm pretty sure that was The Bible.

I just got offered the possibility of pretty much my dream "job" (because it involves work, but I don't get paid for it) but I am not sure I can take it.

I have this problem of being passionate about a lot of things and not being able to do them all at once. At least not well.

I want to be able to make some extra money by baking cupcakes, be a great mom, lead my small group of high school girls and be there for them when they need me, be a great wife, keep my house fairly clean, have a healthy good meal on the table every night, and be involved in my bible study and attend a small group.

I really wish I could do it all. If it weren't for the whole house and meal thing, I think it would be close call.

So do I say yes because I really want to do it, and think it would be awesome to do it, or do I wait and pray for better timing. Sigh. Such big decisions accompany adulthood. Sometimes my brain hurts from so many of them.